Jumping In

You know that feeling of apprehension you get at the edge of the pool when you are deciding whether or not you should get in the water slowly or just jump in? I experience this feeling when I start something new. The feeling I get of indecision that I should take my time, get the feel of the water, let my body get used to the change in temperature, or just jump and let the water envelope me and live in the moment. My head is telling me to slow down and warning me that my body isn't ready. My heart is saying, really, come on, just get it over with, enjoy the shock, savour the rush.

As I get older and gain more experience, I am discovering that there is a time to just jump in and there is a time to go slow and ease into it. I find I am actually enjoying the uncertainty of the moment and going with it. I used to like the confidence of going slowly, knowing that I had a handle on the situation. Ironically, I have gained more confidence from just jumping in and being successful, than if everything was planned and no surprises.

It has taken me half a life time but I am learning to embrace the shock, the cold and the bliss of just, jumping in.